Ugh, I have Lost My Weight Loss/ Get Fit Mojo.... Have You Seen It?

 So I wrote this long post all about Spring Break week, but I just scrapped it. I'll bore you with pics later from the shorties' first trip to the zoo, but I felt like my lack of get fit mojo was a more important post. I am slipping. Here it is only March and I am having a hard time staying on track. I know that I am not overweight. But I am not where I want to be either. I really need to get off my behind and go shred with Jillian Michaels, but honestly, at 7 at night after the littlest ones go to bed, I'd rather watch Bravo TV or worse, the Food Network. The fire is out, and my dear hubby's is not. I am in workout wasteland. I don't like to do it. I don't get that endorphin, "ohmygod, I totally should have been doing this before, I feel so awesome!" I just get tired and sweaty. And who likes to sweat? So I am trying to get accountable by writing all this down. I need to force myself into a regular routine and stick to it. Maybe 2-3 times a week, just to dip my toe in, I dunno.

I think part of it is that since January, I have lost 9 pounds. I am not a big girl, so I think maybe I thought I'd see it more. Or maybe someone else would?! Even though clothes are bigger, I don't see the loss. It is such the downer of weight loss that you see the number on the scale, but the girl in the mirror doesn't match up. Bitch. I went through old pictures of me yesterday, same weight as today, but all I could think was, "why don't I look that thin now?" I know, I am totally mental. And it is so frustrating. So today I am here to barf out all this boo hoo stuff and also admit that my fit mojo is lost. My hope is that I get it back and very soon. I am going to write down my food intake today, that always helps too. Fingers crossed, I need to get back to working out. I am almost 40. And my best friend just called me to tell me she HAD HOT FLASHES last night... Dear God, I am not ready.....