This morning I took the shorties to their neurologist, Emi for a recheck, Simon was going to get his first Botox shot for his torticollis. He gets the once over from the doctor and I mentioned that Simon's left foot seems to turn in sometimes. I was planning on telling the pediatrician on their next appointment, I figure we'd discuss a shoe or more PT or whatever. He does a bunch of physical tests on my sweet baby and then tells me he may have mild cerebral palsy. I'm sorry, WHAT?! Then he shows me that Simon's left hand is curled up while his right hand does everything, that the reflexes on the left are quite slower than the right. He wants an MRI done to see if it has affected his brain.... I'm sitting in the room trying to process and corral these two kiddos and all I want is to call Billy. I really like the neurologist, I can tell he loves the kids, loves his job, he has great bedside manner for the moms.
15 minutes later I'm in the car with Billy (he drops us off for appointments there, parking downtown sucks) and I am trying to be calm and I turn my head and tears are streaming down his face. WTF?! Hey, man of steel, I can't keep it together when you CRY IN FRONT OF ME!!!!!!!! Now is NOT the time to find emotions, do that in secret, thankyouverymuch....
So now it's been a few hours, I have scoured the Internet and am beginning to calm down. While I don't know what is going on in his brain, I know that we can handle difficulty in coordination, frustration when your body won't do what you want. There are so many more terrible things that he could have, I'm feeling pretty lucky. Thanks for the vent time....
Oh my goodness... what a morning you had! I am so, so sorry! Internet research can be so good but alot of times it can scare the you-know-what outta you! I sincerely hope and pray everything turns out ok. Are you going for a second opinion?
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